Thirteen years and one year I spent with him. And on a cold snowy day, he left me, leaving my mom and me alone… The person I would never see in my life, the person I miss so much, and the person I really miss and will miss forever is my dad.
I think my dad was my best friend through my childhood. When I was in kindergarten and in an elementary school, I saw many parents paying no attention to their children: fathers were unwilling to play with their daughters, especially. However, dad and I had many common things. We played soccer, basketball, and skied together. When he prepared for his Ph.D, I used to make tea for him (he just loved the peppermint tea!). And even when I heard that he got cancer, I used to take me to the park and play with me, walk, and talk about life.
And on January 31st, 2006, he left me. He abandoned me. I don’t even remember whether I cried that day. I just remember that I was so shocked. The dearest person in my life just left me without even saying goodbye to me.
Every time, when there was a family day or family trip in school, I just didn’t come that day and said that my parents were to busy to come. But the thing is that I’ve always felt jealous of daughters who walk with their fathers. I don’t know how much I miss him. I wish he was here with me, show how much I’ve grown up since he left me, and how much I miss him even today.
These days, I fear that I will forget him. I even fear that one day, I just forget his face, his smiling bright face… I always look at the pictures of him and me and try to resemble the past memories.
I miss him very much...
Dad I miss you…
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