My SAT scores came out...

I heard from my teacher that my SAT scores would come out on May 26th, so after lunch, I went up to library and opened the "Collegeboard.org" cite and logged in. However, the scores were not up there yet. I was so nervous while clicking "To check your scores." The scores, it said, would be available on Saturday, May 28th.

After the counseling ( where I go for college preparation ( I also write essays and begin the common application documents)), I logged in the cite again clicked "To check your scores" again. My heart was beating. My fingers were shaking.

As I looked at my score, I could say anything. I was shocked. Seriously, I didn't say anything for 5 minutes. I just glare at the monitor and looked at the score again and again. My Math score was OK; reading score - kind of messed up, but my writing score.... It wasn't my score. I usually get over 700 on writing section when I take the practice tests. However, this time, I was just so shocked at my writing score.

I didn't know how to tell my parents. My counselor looked at my score and was shocked. He said that I have to work without day and night. He also added: " Next time I'll see you, I want you to be -10 pounds at least!" Wow, that was cruel :)

Anyway, I came back home, shocked, but didn't want my parents to know the disaster yet.

The Next day, while eating lunch, I told the disaster. My mom was shocked, but I dad encouraged me not to be so gloomy and depressed. He said that doing bad this time, I will improve and do better next time.

I think from now on, I have to work really hard. Finals are coming up, and I won't let myself to disappoint anyone more. I can do it! I will not ever give up!
Just several days left! Let's Do it!

Next semester schedule

There are two weeks left til the end of the semester. Last week, Mr. Alt, my school counselor, talked about which subject I have to take next semester. God, I can't believe that I'm going to be a senior! I'm kind of excited to be a senior and to tease those suffering future juniors (XD) but, I'm worried about my college applications. I talked Mr. Alt about my dream schools, but he kind of talked that just leave those schools and be realistic: he also said that those are just dream schools. I felt very depressed and just decided to give up my dream schools.

Anyway, we talked about the subjects that I have to take next semester. I'm defenitely excited to take AP English Composition and AP Psychology. But, I'm little bit worried to take AP Calculus AB, because as everybody knows, I'm bad at math. :(

I'm also not sure to take either technology or Physics Honors. Technology seems easy, but to be distinguished among other students, I have to take more challenging classes. And, I need to take at least one Study Hall to chill out. 

Anyway, I'm excited for the next semester. And, now, I have to prepare for my finals. ADIOS!

Finals are coming up...

It's May already: 2011 spring performance is coming up; seniors are ready to leave the school, and the juniors are still suffering with SAT and finals. Last year, I was the MC of the spring performance. My friend did the make-up for me, and the evening was mine. This year, I'm not sure whether the principle will going to choose MC or not. But I would love to do it again.

To say about the finals, I'm just SO depressed when I'm thinking of it. I have US History FINAL, Spanish FINAL Project, Pre-Cal Honors TEST, ART Presentation, and English 11 Honors Final. So much to study! Many people have the steretotype that Asians are good at math; however it is not true at all. For example, I hated math since I was in an elementary school. I just HATED math. When I enetered the high school, I took Geometry, Algebra II, and Pre-Cal (taking it right now). Geometry and Algebra were kind of OK, but Pre-Cal was really difficult.

Anyway, I am really worried what should I do, how I should prepare for the finals, and if I can pass all the subjects. US History is all about memorizing definitions, battles, and why certain people are important. In Spanish, I just have to use http://www.voicethread.com/ to record my voice and describe about my family, myself, restraunt, my house, my friends, appearances of people, fashion, technology, and favorite TV show/movie all in Spanish. In Pre-Cal, I just hope that my teacher Ms.Won would do the review session before final so that we could figure out what she will going to ask us on Final. During Art, I just need to make a power-point and create an artwork about some certain artist, but I didn't choose him yet (Just thinking...).

And the most devastating part before the summer vacaion is that I have SAT right after my FINALS. My Finals end up on Friday, and the next day, I have to fly to Busan by airplane to get on time and take my SAT there. Furthermore, the subject I'm taking is World History, so I feel SO miserable...

I wish everything will end up good...

I miss you very much...

Thirteen years and one year I spent with him. And on a cold snowy day, he left me, leaving my mom and me alone… The person I would never see in my life, the person I miss so much, and the person I really miss and will miss forever is my dad.

I think my dad was my best friend through my childhood. When I was in kindergarten and in an elementary school, I saw many parents paying no attention to their children: fathers were unwilling to play with their daughters, especially. However, dad and I had many common things. We played soccer, basketball, and skied together. When he prepared for his Ph.D, I used to make tea for him (he just loved the peppermint tea!). And even when I heard that he got cancer, I used to take me to the park and play with me, walk, and talk about life.

And on January 31^st, 2006, he left me. He abandoned me. I don’t even remember whether I cried that day. I just remember that I was so shocked. The dearest person in my life just left me without even saying goodbye to me.

Every time, when there was a family day or family trip in school, I just didn’t come that day and said that my parents were to busy to come. But the thing is that I’ve always felt jealous of daughters who walk with their fathers. I don’t know how much I miss him. I wish he was here with me, show how much I’ve grown up since he left me, and how much I miss him even today.

These days, I fear that I will forget him. I even fear that one day, I just forget his face, his smiling bright face…  I always look at the pictures of him and me and try to resemble the past memories.

I miss him very much...

Dad I miss you…

Are you ready for summer???

When the flowers bloom, and the students finish their AP exams, it is time to prepare for the summer. I like summer: hot weather but cool wind, deep-blue-emerald ocean, and wonderful time to collect warm memories in your life. Last year, in 2010, I've spent whole summer just preparing for SAT, and to say the truth, I regret it. I regret why I didn't spend more time making friends or going out with them to exotic places. So, this year, in 2011, I SWEAR that I'm going to spend it SPECTACULARLY!

First of all, I really want to go to ocean. Though I cannot swim at all, I really enjoy the cool wind and cold touch of the sea water. I just love to walk around the beach especially in the evening or in the morning when it is still cool and sun didn't arise yet. I've always visited there with my parents or family members, so this year, I want to go there by myself, only with friends and make wonderful memories.



Secondly, I've spend lots of time preparing for SAT, AP exams and keeping my GPA high, so I didn't have time to spend time alone. To reveal little secret about me: I'm a huge anime lover!!!!!!!!! I liked watching animations or cartoons since I was in kindergarten (Diseneys were my favorite!!), but as I grew up, I began to watch Japanese animations and started to love them. So, I missed many of the episodes of several animations since I had to study for the school and for Collegeboard exams. Therefore, I would like to spend some time to catch up.

(Gintama)

One of my favorite Japanese animations. It's about everyday life of people living during Edo period where aliens come and invade Japan. Even though it contains some kind of historical materials, it also deals with science-fiction and humor.

(Bleach)

It's about the normal school boy who suddenly becomes the ghost and starts to rescue other ghosts that are in danger. To say the truth, I watched this last year, but I had to quit it because it's like over 350 episodes! I start to watch it yesterday, but as you see, there are more than 300 episodes to watch more. So I think I'm going to watch them slowly and patiently.





Lastly, I want to travel to Tokyo, Japan. Last year, my cousin and I went to Nagasaki together (only both of us! no Parents!!!!!) and it was cool. I asked my mom to let me go to Tokyo this summer, but my mom keeps worrying about that nuclear bomb that exploded last march after the Great Earthquake in Japan. I think I have to persuade her and let me and my cousin to Tokyo. I've ben in Tokyo once, and it was gorgeous. I heard that one of my grandmothers were actually Japanese, so I'm really interested in Japanese culture (actually, I can understand Japanese, speak but I just cannot write or read those letters). Everything is cute and cool. Really would like to visit Tokyo again!!!!!!!